LIFE

Its been a while. I should probably start writing more often but heck I really don't think anyone reads it haha. Life has been pretty...interesting. It is not where I thought I would be rite now but here I am. It all changed back in May at womens when I bombed or more better lost my spot on the world team. After womens I came home and put all my lifting stuff away in my closet and never wanted to touch it again. It was one of the most frustrating and hardest things that has happened to me in a long time. Who would have known the one thing that got me through the most would make my life hard haha. Crazy rite?!

This summer I entered the weight room like 2 times and only once did I actually do a work out. Pretty sad huh? It really is. But I just couldn't get myself back in there. I was to hurt and upset, and heck I still am. But I gotta get back in there and start training because womens 2012 Boise, ID I am going to go show everyone that I can lift. I know I can lift and I know what I can do. I think I just need that closer that I will not be leaving the sport bombing.

I do want to wish all my team mates luck this next week. Tomorrow my coach Rayborn and another team mate will be leaving to Canada to go compete at the 2011 World Championships. And I am not going to lie this has been one hell of a hard week for me knowing that I won't be going with. It is hard. I hate it. I have been dreading this week and next since I walked off that platform with those red lights. But I have to be strong and get through it. I have be strong mentally for once, not just physically. I want to give a special good luck wish to my good friend Jesse Norris. I have been going to competition after competition with this kid since my junior year of high school. He is a OUTSTANDING lifter and can push through anything that comes to him. It will be hard not being able to go run up and give him that giant hug after his last deadlift this year but I will just have to hug my computer or something. Love the kid to death and he deserves this more than anyone I know. He is a amazing lifter who works his butt off everyday to get to where he is. As far as everyone else on the world team GOOD LUCK! Leave it on the platform and show those other countries what the USA is made of. =) I will be watching. And to my coach. I couldn't wish for anything more but to be there with you. You are a amazing coach who has helped me and the other kids on the team get to where we are today. Bring home some world champions!

And that is just a little bit of my life rite now.

-Kenzie

My Crazy, Fun Life =)

What a crazy few weeks!! Work has been keeping me super busy. I got a new client about a month ago and it has been a rough 4 weeks. I have never exactly had a client that I didn't enjoy working with, but I have found the one. I used to be happy going to work everyday, but now it is just hard for me. Its not that I don't enjoy working with him, I just get frustrated when I can't help him. I guess this is a good learning experience for me. My patience level definitely has gone up. I have been learning how to deal with screaming non-stop for six hours. But I did find something that helps!! Singing the "Itsy Bitsy Spider"! Who would have knew haha. I do come home with a pretty horse voice though most of the time. But If it helps the screaming it is all worth it. =)

I have about 4 and a half weeks tell womens nationals and I am SO excited to go and lift this year! I don't know exactly why, but I am! I think a big reason is because my cycle has been going really good for the first time in a while! I have been able to actually work on my deadlifts every week and they have gone up tremendously! It makes me very very happy!! =) Then squats are going super amazing as well! Last week I did 455 for sets of 5!! I think that is the most weight I have ever done for fives before. Then we are still working on the whole bench thing. Hopefully we get it figured out. I really would like my shirt to fit me again. But that comes with me working my butt off tell we leave to lose this dang weight. Never again will I let myself get this high in weight again. I have felt like crap the last few months, and now that I am losing it I feel so much better!! I don't think it will bother me to be 181 pounds again like it used it. Now that I know what it is like to be up by the 200's I know that it is ok for me to be at 181. To lose my weight I have been doing a very low carb diet. It went really good for the first couple weeks I lost 7 pounds!! Whoo hoo!! But I am not going to lie I have not done really well at all this week and I can tell. =/ I just need to get back with it and really stick hard to it for the next few weeks and hopefully it will pay off. I also found this three day diet thing that I might attempt to try. But we will see. But yeah I am pretty dang stoked for nationals!! Oh its in Atlanta, Georgia this year!! My goals for this meet is to squat 550, bench 220, and dead lift around 440, and I believe that gives me a total of 1210! That is like a hundred pound jump from my last total!! So hopefully all goes well and I can hit everything. I would really like to hit a 9 for 9 meet at this competition. It would make me very happy. =)

I also turned 20 three weeks ago I believe it was. =) This means I have around 7 months tell I can start my papers for my mission! It is CRAZY!! I seriously can't believe how fast it came. It felt like it would be forever tell I would be able to even start them and I am down to seven months! I am so happy that I made the choice to go on a mission. I really feel good about it. And with my new calling in church teaching relief society I feel like it is preparing me a ton!! I am learning each month how to teach by the spirit and that it is ok to go off of the lesson and just say what you feel like you need to say. I also have been gaining a testimony of this church, even more than before. =) I have gained a testimony on how much heavenly father loves each of us and I have been able to feel that love for the women I am teaching. =) It just makes me happy. This last Sunday we had the 2nd counsler from the general relief society come and speak to us for a fire side. She spoke on temples and it was AMAZING!! Something that really stood out to me was that the temple isn't secret its sacred. She talked to us about how it is ok to talk about the temple with people who want to know. And I really found that cool. =) I really need to go to the temple again. I am going to try really hard and go next week! I wanted to go today but I totally forgot urg... I can not wait tell we get the temple in Meridian! It will be so nice! And It will be a great opportunity to take Amy so she can see what it is like inside and learn about it. I am very excited for the opportunity to take her there for the open house.

Well life is really good rite now. I am loving it. All its fun and laughter that come along with it. =)

2 Decades

I am officially two decades old. Everyone asks " Does it feel different to be 20?" I tell them no. I do love being able to say I am 20 though. People still say I am little, but that is OK cause truly I don't want to grow up. I enjoy being young and having fun. Yes, I may still be working full time and doing the whole grown up paying bills thing but I love my life. I love my job, and the kids I work with. I love my family. I love my friends. And I love where my life is going.

Since I am 20 now I have one year tell I can leave on my mission. On my birthday I though about that a lot. It kind of scared me. But it was exciting scary moment if that makes sense? haha. I can not wait tell I can start my papers in December and then get to go on the most exciting journey of my life. =) I think that missions are a fantastic thing. Being able to go and share the gospel I love with people that I will get the great opportunity to get to know and love over a span of a year and a half. People ask me "Why do you want to serve a mission?" And my answer to them is... have you ever just wanted to do something that you know in your heart you need to do? That is why I want to serve a mission. I know in my heart that I need to do this for me. I need to do this to bless other peoples lives and I am so EXCITED to do it! And who knows maybe I will get married instead of going on a mission. Know one knows what is in my future except God and I trust that where ever he may take me it will be the best place for me at that time. =) Here is a little something to live on: Preach the gospel at all times, and open your mouth when necessary. Pretty awesome rite?! Thats what I thought too.

Womens is in 6 weeks and I am super excited for it! I have been training my but off the last few weeks. And can I tell you how much I just LOVE diets?! I don't I actually hate them a lot. I mean who doesn't get to eat cake on their own birthday?! ME! No carb diets suck. But it is something I must to do train so that I can go kick some butt at womens. =) Hopefully I hit some good numbers at womens. Maybe bigger ones than I plan on doing already. That would be nice rite? Its kinda fun keeping my lifts a secret from everyone. I am enjoying it.

-Kenz =)